My rant is simply: I'm being a workaholic, I need to get OUT of the house and do something fun with someone, but am being denied the opportunity.
I have a bad habit of getting caught up in work and just working and working, there is always something that needs be done (as shown by my list of "To-Do" graphics work). Cleaning up the house, working on my backyard, graphics work and a dozen other things. Honestly, I'm pretty much a misfit, even at my church on Sunday mornings and at our Bible Study, I'm "pushed out" of the circle to where I chime in here and there but for the most part I become a misfit.
There's only one person who spends time with me, whether it's going out to eat or grabbing coffee before work or talking out in a parking lot. It has been a refreshing blessing to be able to do these things, it gets me out of my house, away from my computer and allows a large margin of freedom.
Unfortunately for me, she's been avoiding me lately...we're not dating, so please don't grab that connotation out of it. However, unless I'm incredibly analystically inept, its like I have been blackwalled. She doesn't answer her phone, reply to text messages or do anything similarly even more. I've been working like a whirlwind for the past 2 weeks without rest and could really use a break simply to grab a drink some place and talk, or something similar. However, I'm not the kind of guy to do it by myself (where's the fun in that? ;)) and like I said, only one person enjoys spending time with me...I feel rejected wherever I go, church, even the places I do contracting for - I get a list of what they want, send samples, discuss, work out a specific, send over, end of story.
It's rather depressing :(. But, I guess that's how life goes sometimes......doesn't make it any easier though.
So I move on to more work... ;D