Well, my first post essentially told you what your major shortcomings are. You need to actually work on them instead of trying to excuse them or explain them away.
You can’t expect people to forget your past, while you in turn carry on about stuff that happened a couple of years ago now. People see that as hypocritical. Again as I said, actions, not words.
People aren’t going to take you seriously until you fix the “mental aspect” of being in the community. You display several “less than ideal” traits that will only come back to bite you if you don’t properly resolve them.
You apparently have burned several bridges that aren’t going to be easy to repair, if they are repairable at all. But the one thing people will look for/at is “Has he really resolved his maturity issues”. And like I said above - it takes deeds and actions, not words and explanations to display that.
You need to not take yourself so seriously. You also need to be able to admit when you’re wrong, or at the very least, know when to “quit while your behind”
There is another rather amusing incident you were involved in as I understand (involving a certain coating), that I don’t bring up earlier, because it’s not really relevant. When that is brought up, you need to be able to laugh it off and say something like “Yeah, that was kinda dumb on my part” instead of being constantly defensive.
I didn’t personally witness the volunteer saber issue, so I won’t argue that.
However, I did hear about your encounter with the TRA staff at the time ( as I said earlier, we DO talk), so I know that what I told you is basically accurate regaling your ban there.
Likewise, I did read through the initial Yun incident, and you were completely in the wrong there. There is no real disagreement to be had. You were NOT misled, you were told exactly what he had, and what he would try to do for you, but because you had a fixed picture in your head, you saw what you wanted to see, and were bitterly disappointed when you didn’t get your wish. No amount of revisionist history is going to change that. This is what I meant by “taking the loss and moving on”. You were in the wrong. You lost. Move on. You need to be able to admit and more importantly do that, not sit and try to debate it. (Actions as opposed to words).
And I’ll be very honest here, you appear to have a way to go yet based on everything I’ve read in this thread.